A Letter To My Soul (6.23.2023)

After years and years spending time asking myself this big question, feeling aching about my life every single day and never feel whole. Today I can confidently tell you, I've found it (and I will keep continue exploring it by the end of the day).

My path is to return to myself, be myself. Be the one I never knew before the world got its hand on me. Before the outer system set me up and threw me all the concepts about what I do and should do. I return to who I truly am. So much that I wanted to say, but maybe in another chapter of my life and later on when it’s time. But right now, I urge myself to share this part of me that I never felt confident about or almost forgot about it: My love for creativity.

When I worked in advertising, I thought creativity associated with creating artworks and doing photoshop. For that reason, even though under my skin I know I am creative af but I talked to myself ‘Come on you cannot do it. It’s for creative heads’.

To my fellow friends who feel yourself a creative, claim it! You really are and truly are.

You don’t need to be an Art Director, Creative Director to be creative. You can be a mother and can be creative in how you cook, how to raise your kids. You can be a creative in your own kitchen, in your own closet. Creative in the way to talk. Creative in the way you write. Creative in the way you bake. Everything! And, writing is my way to creativity.

Writing - It is my way to connect to myself, to express my feelings, to share, to let my soul speaks, to let me heart knows what I really want and desire. It is my best way to share my truest self to me and to you.

I thought, okay if writing is what lights me up, why not show up and write every day. Write for me, for myself, write to express, write to journal, write to let the others people who are in the same journey as me do not feel alone. 

Too much that I wish I could express it to people who feel the same like me. That is why I created a space for myself to express it by my writing. It has been a long time till I can come back to one of my talents and interest which is WRITING.

This space (parinama.life) serves as my online memoir where I try to share some of the thoughts I have during my path of enlightenment. If you feel call to read it, please do. Or if you feel call to search, read, listen or learn about spirituality or soul concept, do it!

You know, we are always supported by our tribe. Tribe is a group of people who share the same interests and connect to each other by the same values.

So, here are my message to my tribe:

If you are interested in spiritual awakening, all things related spirituality or the Soul concept, you are not alone. There is a whole community for you to support you. No need to hold your lights in the closet (Like I did before).

If you are also feel lost in life and going through mental breakdown or depression, don’t be afraid and feel despair. Knowing that you are not alone (I used to be in the same shoes).

If you don’t love your job or what you are doing right now, you are not alone. Millions of people in the planet feel the same (I did feel the same).

I was brought down to my knees and my ego was ripped off to surrender the lightness of my soul. It got me awaken. It got me back home to myself.

Your soul is always calling for you to connect and remember why you are here on Earth.