My 'Spiritual Awakening' Journey (2022)
Original posting date: Feb 7, 2022
I remember reading a story of an influencer shared on his Facebook about his thoughts on the spiritual journey. He broke it down into several parts but I only finished reading his first one, the part of #Awakening.
It was several months ago, probably July 2021.
I knew I was triggering by then. I found myself in his story. I found myself being interested in reading books about healing, the universe about the meaning of this life. I believe that when you are reaching to the awakening phase, there will be an urge within you keep asking ‘the purpose if your life’, ‘Why are you here for?’. These big questions keep flowing in your mind and repeating. Even though it came to me before, but I ignored it because I was too busing running on the hamster wheel of human life.
You will soon start questioning if you are fulfilled with your everyday life, and that if your 9–2–5 job worth it. You suddenly feel that you have been stuck doing the things that does not fulfill you nor light you up.
What’s the purpose of earning these amount of money while you don’t feel happy?
I was in that situation.
I always feel like there is something missing within me, and whenever I go or how much material things I own, I won’t be happy nor fulfilled.
If you are having these kind of feelings, knowing that your soul is calling you. Your soul wants to connect with you. Your soul wants you to remember the purpose of why are you here on Earth - The purpose that you soul decided before your incarnation.
Body, Mind and Soul.
How long have you been disconnected from the spirit? How long haven't you check your inner world vs your outer world?
My journey started when decided to take the habit of praying everyday during covid-19 lockdown. I remember reading books and watching Tiktok videos of them advising us to keep our sincere praying because one day it might come true. What else that I could do except praying when nothing seemed to progress? I had doubt back then. I am an atheist coming from a family that don't follow any religions, so praying to me, it seems strange. However, that time I chose to believe. The pandemic really strikes everyone and it forces us to come back and look back into our inner self.
When I started praying, the universe began to response.
Something within me had shifted. Coincidentally, I bought a book for my friend's birthday based on her request. As I began reading, it resonated deeply with something I'd been searching for a while. So, I bought a copy for myself and devoured it in just a few days.
The book's content explored the basic principles of the universe's creation and introduced the laws of attraction, karma, and incarnation. This sparked a newfound excitement within me; I discovered a genuine passion for these concepts.
One morning, I woke up feeling utterly transformed. It was as if I finally grasped how life operates, experiencing a sense of my soul's calling to remember my true essence and purpose. This phase felt like a complete rebirth.
No more comparing myself to others. They no longer hold the key to my happiness. From the depths of my heart, I declare: material things no longer matter.
I know my purpose lies in helping others become better versions of themselves. When I imagine connecting them with their life's purpose through energy flow, a lightness washes over me. While the exact path remains unclear, this call awakens every sense within me, urging me to follow intuition over heady dictates.
My friends are surprised by my recent explorations – baking, painting, planting, meditating – activities I never indulged in before. This is me returning to my authentic self, a self free from the need to please. I'm content in my quietude, no longer blinded by societal expectations dictating my actions and reactions. The fear of missing out had long kept me from being truly myself, dimming my light just to fit in.
Peeling away these layers not only fosters confidence but also amplifies my capacity for kindness and compassion. For the first time, I feel the oneness, the wholeness, the beautiful reality that we are all human, flawed yet yearning for happiness, not suffering.
Just by being kind, I can be a beacon of light. By speaking words heartfelt and true. By accepting my parents' stubbornness without harboring resentment. By simply being uniquely me.
Loved ones will love and accept me for who I am. This is how I reclaim my happiness, not from others or by waiting for perfect circumstances, but from within. In the present moment, where true joy resides.
The world transforms alongside my mindful words. Reconnecting with my soul and allowing it to guide me releases the daily tension of controlling what lies beyond my reach.
Believe in the universe's power. Believe in yourself. Remember, your mind is an incredible force, capable of both uplifting and hindering your journey. Don't let the ego, your internal and external companion, ever become your master. This, my dear, is just the beginning of my awakened journey.
[REFLECTION PROMPTS]
What in your life now that has been falling away?
What are your 'Why me' moments?
What are your biggest question in life right now?